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 “I’ve come to believe that there exists in the universe something I call ‘The Physics of The Quest’ — a force of nature governed by laws as real as the laws of gravity or momentum. And the rule of Quest Physics maybe goes like this: ‘If you are brave enough to leave behind everything familiar and comforting (which can be anything from your house to your bitter old resentments) and set out on a truth-seeking journey (either externally or internally), and if you are truly willing to regard everything that happens to you on that journey as a clue, and if you accept everyone you meet along the way as a teacher, and if you are prepared – most of all – to face (and forgive) some very difficult realities about yourself… then truth will not be withheld from you.’ Or so I’ve come to believe. I can’t help but believe it, given my experience.
Eat Pray Love
Alone – Heart

We were talking the other evening about the phrases one uses when trying to comfort someone who is in distress. I told him that in English we sometimes say, “I’ve been there.” This was unclear to him first—I’ve been where? But I explained that deep grief sometimes is almost like a specific location, a coordinate on a map of time. When you are standing in that forest of sorrow, you cannot imagine that you could ever find your way to a better place. But if someone can assure you that they themselves have stood in that same place, and now have moved on, sometimes this will bring hope.

“So sadness is a place?” Giovanni asked.

“Sometimes people live there for years,” I said.

“As they spoke, the only thing I could think about was that scene from Julius Caesar where Brutus stabs him in the back. Et tu, Eric?”
― Nicholas SparksA Walk to Remember

“And every night I miss you
I can just look up
and know the stars are
holdin’ you, holdin’ you, holdin’ you tonight”

Sam, I miss you so much. It’s ripping me apart.
I’m becoming the person I once was. The one that I thought I left in the past. Its not that I’ve put on the grey veil and am seeing the world in a haze. I think the veil has been taken away, the veil of happiness, and now I’m seeing truly. It’s much harder with them. They think they’re seeing the truth. But the truth lies. You said it wouldn’t always be like this. “Just try to remember that. It’s like this right now, and won’t always be like this.” It’s the depression talking. It’s talking right through me.

Lost in the Echo – Linkin Park
Blue – Big Bang
Ships In The Night – Mat Kearney

“I’m floating, and it’s like this amazing, amazing realness. I’m free. I’m safe.”

It’s time to go back–to what I really loved in the first place.

…not who you have to impress.