“And every night I miss you
I can just look up
and know the stars are
holdin’ you, holdin’ you, holdin’ you tonight”

Sam, I miss you so much. It’s ripping me apart.
I’m becoming the person I once was. The one that I thought I left in the past. Its not that I’ve put on the grey veil and am seeing the world in a haze. I think the veil has been taken away, the veil of happiness, and now I’m seeing truly. It’s much harder with them. They think they’re seeing the truth. But the truth lies. You said it wouldn’t always be like this. “Just try to remember that. It’s like this right now, and won’t always be like this.” It’s the depression talking. It’s talking right through me.


Lost in the Echo – Linkin Park
Blue – Big Bang
Ships In The Night – Mat Kearney

“I’m floating, and it’s like this amazing, amazing realness. I’m free. I’m safe.”

It’s time to go back–to what I really loved in the first place.

…not who you have to impress.

I watched you fall apart and chased you to the end.
I’m left with emptiness that words can not defend
You’ll never know what I became because of you
Ten thousand promises, ten thousand ways to lose

And you held it all but you were careless to let it fall
You held it all and I was by your side, powerless

— Powerless, Linkin Park

Weep not for roads untraveled
Weep not for paths left alone
‘Cause beyond every bend
Is a long blinding end
It’s the worst kind of pain
I’ve known

Give up your heart left broken
And let that mistake pass on
‘Cause the love that you lost
Wasn’t worth what it cost
And in time you’ll be glad it’s gone

Weep not for roads untraveled
Weep not for sights unseen
May your love never end
And if you need a friend
There’s a seat here alongside me